manje?

sigh~ while writing dis post..im not really in a good mood..why?
janz n bupha juz left dis morning..so, here i am..ALONE!
tw x sy sgt allergic dgn loneliness??? ive got reasons y i shud be here...so, ko nk salahkan sape skrg??? u made ur decision..so, tggung sndri! pdn muke diri sendiri! he said, i cant be like dis..im too childish..ive grown up.im a big gurl now.i shud act like one..y am i like dis? ouh..strength, courage pliz come n stay close to me..its me..its myself...dependent.too pampered.yeah.finally i admit that.i really hate it but it is in me.i hav to change! but how?? i dun noe..bye